Creepiness

So i had a kinda creepy guy ask me out last night  and i turned him down... besides he basically said i would have to pay for my meal but he would help pay some..  umm that would not be a date that would be going Dutch ....  yeah turned him down and fixxed food at the  apartment ....

Why is it only the creep guys ask me out on dates?  Why do i only attract the creepy type guys?

Clemson Life....

Things have been ok... last week was pure Hell tho... but luckily i lived through it

New Poem written today

Stressed 

When im stressed and at wits end,
I tend to exclude myself from everyone.
I keep to myself.
Im at breaking point
I don’t want to snap at someone.
If I keep to myself then,
I just take it out on myself.
Noone else gets hurt but me.
So many frustrations,
So many things to do.
Ive finally reached
My normal point of busyness.
The rope is slowly fraying,
But the upside is its time,
To tie a knot and hold on.
Under the right amount of pressure,
I can get things done.
When there is time to breathe,
I will come around again

Crystal Titus
11/8/2012

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The next person that tells me

I look like im dead tired, or death warmed over is gonna get a punch in the face..

Here it goes ...  The day when life catches up with you after burning the candle at both ends for so long... a class runs late, you miss the bus twice and even after being so tired you still walk half a mile home from the grocery store. You still have to buckle up and ride it out for a month until an actual break .... tie a knot in the rope and hold on... .

Ag tail Gate and GA tech Game Weekend

It was Awesome i had a great time and it was tons of fun to help out...and the game was awesome. the loudest ive heard Death Valley in a while ... Formed some special friendships this weekend as well.

Everything has fallen into place

Finally had an  a HAH moment here in Clemson... everything seems to finally have fallen into place... and i feel like i finally do fit it...

Classes Friends, and Clemson Life

Classes are going great so far...
Making great friends and connections that i feel will last a while..
Clemson life seems great so far... the Game was awesome last week though I went by myself. Tomorrows game im starting my block seating with FFA and Ag mech

One of these days

You will figure it out. and call me.  ill be right here ...i miss you voice and i know you need a friend... ill always be here 

First Full week of Classes.

Well im settling in nicely to my classes and making friends. Its not that hard really a few of us all tha vhe same classes and are slowly bringing other people in to our friendom...  Things are great so far.

Thanks Everyone

As I am now at another chapter in my life, there are so many people that I cant begin to say thank you enough too.  Though its been a long road. I wouldn’t trade it for the world.   

So many life long friends, have been made, as well as some that have walked into my life for one reason or another and left foot prints and moved on.   Each person has helped me become the person I am today, in one way or another.

My time in Charlotte was wonderful and ive been back in SC for 2 months now and I still haven’t gotten used to the fact im no longer there. I spend time with family at house and it was great but I realized ive been out on my own too long. So I knew I couldn’t stay there too much longer but I already had my place here in Clemson and I just had to wait for the time to come to beable to move in.

Well Guess what that time has come and we moved all my stuff into the new 4 bedroom, 4.5 bath town house. I can have up to 3 roommates and right now I only have one.  We get along great J.   The place is really quiet at times but I like it.

 I went and walked around Campus this past Thursday to figure out where my classes were and just get a feel of things. It felt like home and all my classes aren’t too far apart.

Classes start officially August 22, but I have Transfer Convocation on Monday August 20^th.  Clemson Fan Appreciation Day is Sunday Aug 19^th at the Death Valley I think I may attend that as it would be fun.  

Ive had some time the past few days to see here and think, things are finally sinking in.  Im no longer in Charlotte, and im back in a small town feel and I like it.  However im back to square one with no friends right close by.  Which is ok, and I accept the challenge of meeting new people and making new friends, but still keeping in contact with my best friends through the computer and phone.  

    But now is the time for one of my favorite Little Texas song quotes.

“Show me a mountain
Tell me it can't be climbed
I'll find my way through any shadow of doubt
And I'll meet you on the other side

I love a good challenge
Send them all my way
I'll rise to any occasion
I am not afraid 

To be loud and proud
And givin' in to nothin'
Livin' and a lovin'
I'll never get enough
And all the ups and downs
I take 'em as they come
And I'll be right here standing my ground
Loud and Proud”

Everyone knows I don’t stop until I get what I want, and now is the time for a new adventure and chapter in this game we all call life. It’s time to get up and stand tall, keep walkin with one foot in front of the other.  

And I know I probably haven’t said it enough, Thank you for helping me achieve my dreams, and get me to a Four Year college.  I truly couldn’t have gotten here with out everyone of you!  

Moved in and Waiting on AC

Got Everything moved into Clemson... and the AC broke so we are waiting on it to be fixxed... JEEEZ... Hope it wont be much longer

Killing the summer

at the family house... and waiting on time to move to Clemson... its driving me insane... but im making it...

waiting for you to call

Waiting for you to call is like me wanting to scream.....  Ive been waiting for an hour and a half...  really my friend really ... come on now lets get this takin care of

Trip to Tennessee

Was great we went up there to meet my moms long last brother at my mom Sisters house...  Uncle Dave does fit in the family... we met him, his wife, and their 2 kids...

Had a get together at my Aunts  husbands families house as well it was great we got to see an eagle in its natural habitat...

Whats happend in the past Month

Well i moved back to Simpsonville.....  took a family trip to the beach...  and then went to Clemson Orientation ....

Times Winding down...

exactly 8 days left of living in charlotte for now... wow how times flies...

and i actually took a nap today ...

race weeks

as race weeks are upon us in Charlotte things have been wonderful except for the race last night it was BORING... Nascar needs to rething that format....

Its all coming together

Its all coming together,  I swear Grams is lookin out for me from above. Becuase everything is finally clicking again... I got accepted to Clemson, i found a townhouse out there for pretty much what my cost is now...  I see my hopes and dreams falling into place one piece at a time right in front of my eyes.  Its been a long road but it seems to be leading me to the right path again :) Lookin forward to the near future

So much Going on...   Accepted to Clemson ....   Just survived exams here at CPCC..  Thank god...  and my Chemistry teacher is still a jerk... he gave me a withdrawl  WTF... but anyway glad to be out of that class..

Making changes

Cuttin things out again

just stupid sh*t like someone only wants to see me when im by myself.... an no one else is around. Im sorry but ummm if you dont wanna be seen near my friends thats not my problem...

and i havent had much soda in the past 3 days so im thinkin im gonna switch back to sweet tea and lemon ade again

ok thanks on the things you are sending

and im working on some other things too that im gonna cut out

Life

So Im still kicking it... and workin hard on classes  i havent updated in a while... Sorry... Today is April 15th its the one year anniversary of Grams Passing... I miss her so much

I aint your Momma or your damn Maid

I aint your Momma i was gone away from the apartment for 10 days and i come back to a  sink load of dishes... how long are they gonna set there... ive got 2 dishes ive used... since i returned sunday night...   and well im not cleaning the kitchen that looks like Hell i hope  the landlord doesnt walk in and want to show our apartment to anyone becuase HOLY HELL he wouldnt be happy...   and he knows that i dont keep it like that..  but anyway moving on

Disney Trip

The trip was great and it couldnt have a come at a better time in my life.... it was just what i needed.... now its time to get back to reality...  Had a blast at all 4 disney parks...  now its back to classes tomorrow

Spring Break Concludes

So this week was a great week at home in South Carolina, now im back home to Charlotte for another week, before the Business Trip with my Sister down to Florida..

 Friday i spend the day at Clemson University with my Mom... Had the best day out there... It was awesome started out the morning with a tour...  and then i did a thing called Destination Clemson... it as helpful and i got alot of information i needed and i now have an inside track in Clemson University

Let the fun Begin

So Ive been here in SC for 2 days now and im loving every minute of it so far... Ive had no stress and things are great at the moment... i got my chemistry as done as it was gonna be... and well now i have some other stuff to finish up but anyway...  Its just nice to be able to kick back a bit as well.   Only a few added stresses here and there but they arent gonna kill me yet...

Spring Break....

HELLLO SPRING BREAK!!!!!!!!!!


ok so here is the deal.... Got my Clemson application submitted, and 2 of my 3 transcripts sent so far... and i have refiled my financial aid as well..  So fingers Crossed...

 Saturday im headin to SC to spend the week... and Next friday is a college day at Clemson should be fun...

yeah... Thanks Jess

Another Day

well the Daytona 500 should be almost ending by now... but no of course if you want Rain Order a Nascar Race... You get rain....   So its been postponed and still hasnt started yet... UGH    First time in the history or Nascar...
   but anyway i started on my chem homework and got stumped... now im tryin to decide whether to write some poety or Read.... Ive also be flipping between Golf (Rory McIlroy) and  the rain delay coverage....

Life

right now it seems like life sucks...  There is no time to breath no time to do much at all.   I feel like i need to make some big chanages and i feel like i need to build some walls again.  

 I cant keep buring the candle at both ends ...


Here is a quote for my life right now tho

"If you don’t go after what you want, you’ll never have it. If you don’t ask, the answer is always no. If you don’t step forward, you’re always in the same place." - Nora Roberts

Tests this week

Tuesday is test day... I have a Biology Lecture Test.... and a Chemistry Lab test....   Gonna be a fun day....  Looking forward to Disney in 27 days ....

Another Day another Study Session

Long day in the library studying Chemistry and Biology in the library....  

 All i can say is thank god to this guy for explaining this stuff easy to me... Balancing Chemical Equations

Thompson Square - Glass

Heard this song on GAC earlier today and fell in love with it....

                                             "Glass"

Trying to live and love,
With a heart that can't be broken,
Is like trying to see the light with eyes that can't be opened.
Yeah, we both carry baggage,
We picked up on our way, so if you love me do it gently,
And I will do the same.

We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
We are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.
Cause we are glass.

I'll let you look inside me, through the stains and through the cracks,
And in the darkness of this moment,
You see the good and bad.
But try not to judge me, 'cause we've walked down different paths,
But it brought us here together, so I won't take that back.

We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
We are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.

We might be oil and water, this could be a big mistake,
We might burn like gasoline and fire,
It's a chance we'll have to take.

We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
And we are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.
We are glass.

6 weeks into Spring Semester 2012

And i have had my physical and mental melt down.....   well at least i beat the bets or 3 weeks...   It still royally sucks.  But i have the best support system to help me get through it.   this week has been a helluva week and im glad its over with just about.  And i cant say thank you enough to all my friends, family, and support ...

Sicker than a damn Dog

Yeah going on 52 hours now and 48 of them have been spent in bed... UGH this sucks

Updates Mary Kay wise

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I Love my Friends....

Need i say More... i dont think so

So Its Monday

We had a fight and went back to friends for the 2nd time yesturday... anyway... moving on... working on chemistry today and then going to a MK meeting tonight

Mary Kay over Load and LIFE

So Thursday Night was the Beth's Fabulous Fireworks Debut Unit Debut. I was sitting at a table with my National Sale Director and Senior National Sale Director.  My Senior Nation Sale Director Nancy Bonner has made just under $5 million with Mary Kay over the past 40 years and she is retiring next year.. It was a true honor to meet her face to face and get some great training advice from her...
  I spent the Night at Beth's and Adam's house Thursday night and then went and had more Training Friday Morning...

   Friday Night was Spent with the other half of Crystal Squared... I help CW put together a 6ft cat tower for Annabeth and Percy. I also helped with some other things. That was a blast and a half....

Managed to get 11 hours of sleep friday night as well... and  Today Saturday  ive done laundry, cleaned, made a trip to the store, and studied Chemistry....

 Chillin tonight with another friend of mine...


Also this past week i have lost 4 lbs :) YAY ME!  

So much to do. So very little time

stress

TEST Test TEST test TEST test Test ..... i dont wanna here another thing about a damn test ....    

   Anyway... So Much going on right now and its only a month into the semester....  things are just piling up already at least i finished my Spanish stuff today... fixxin to work on Math,  gotta get all my stuff together for a marathon day tomorrow

ive got Classes uptown, and then i have to run back up here to get my stuff, go back uptown to get on another bus and meet a friend that is taking me to Gastonia i have a big Mary Kay thing tomorrow night, im staying with my Mary Kay Director at her house in Gastonia tomorrow night... and then a training on Friday

Not sure

How I feel about things right now?    I feel like ive hit a brick wall.  But thats just one issue...  But other than that LIFE is AWESOME!     Mary Kay is great, I have great friends.  Im not gonna let one issue Piss me off or confuse me any more than it has tonight.  Ive got way to much to worry about.  

Its gonna be a great week

So i had a TOTALLY Awesome weekend, and Well this week is gonna be great tooo.   Gastonia tomorrow for Mary Kay,  Tuesday Class, Wednesday Class,  Thursday Class and Gastonia for Mary Kay, and then Staying that night at Beths for training Friday...  

I have Biology Lecture and Lab Tests this week, and my Chem Lab test too  Wish me luck :)

A Blake Shelton Song comes to mind

Now we all take chances
Every once in a while
We take chances 
If it's just to ease our minds
We all take chances
Wrong or Right
Ah but sometimes chances
Take us by surprise - " Chances" Blake Shelton

Some times we are blinded by what we are currently chasing  and we miss something wonderful in front of us... until we take that chance.... 

FINALLLY Fixxed my computer

Fianlly i now have internet back on my computer... HOLY  Monkies i love my phone but i love my computer more.... anywho back to daily postings...  Same stuff going on.... Class, class, class, and yeah class... anywho

Mary Kay is pickin up again... which is a good thing

Thursday - Saturday

PURE EPICNESS!

 Thursday was great  except for my Chemistry Lecture professor...

Friday was awesome it was the Green and Grow Show in GreensBoro

Pam stayed the night   we got 2  hours of sleep before leaving the apartment at 4:30 am and going uptown Charlotte  for the  2012 Nascar Acceloration Event... OMG  I was able to get her to Meet Dale Jr.. .and I got him to sign some pics of him i took back in 2004... EPIC  and Then  the usual Banter with my favorite Clint Bowyer  and my other favorite Kyle Busch,  was awesome.... it was an Epic Day of Pure Fun ...


Now here i am workin on Math Homework, and Filling out the application for Clemson ... I need $65 for the application

What a week....

F*ck my Life..... I mean i can only do so much.....  


   I did learn a lesson tho i cant get trashed during the week anymore.... but i needed something.... Anyway... Classes are going...

Monday ......

So today was just another day...  Took a 5 mile walk again today.

Did my biology homework....


 Called him and left him a voice mail and asked if he wanted to go get coffee one day after work....   we will see if there is a reply out of that one or not....


Today's Music of Choice is Katie Rogers CD :)

Mary Kay thoughts...

Thank you Nancy Bonner, you  made me thing of something tonight... and realize something about my business....


 Really need to start taking my business more seriously and not just do it when i wanna do it...

Check out my website and order or  please ask me about booking a party today :)

http://www.marykay.com/crystal.titus/default.aspx

Saturday

Well its been an interesting couple of days...


 Worked at the Greenhouse to help give a tour Friday afternoon,  Went to dinner with my Uncle... and then Today Mom and Dad were in town for the day...

 Now my Friend Ed and I are watching the foot ball games together... he brought dinner/snacks over with him and even made cookies....


But yeah anyway  good friends and foot ball with no alcohol involved tonight.

Wednesday

So i went to Spanish today, and then i took the bus Uptown to my Biology Lab,     Not a  bad day at all.  Saw 2 of my friends down at Central Campus ... 

  my Biology lab partner is as much of a smart as as me... but we work well together it seems... 

I finished another book, and started another one...  Emailed my math professor about needin the code of the online part of class,  got my spanish stuff going online... yes it was busy day... 

Lady Antebellum's version of  "If you see him" seems to be my song yet once again since yesturday its been on repeat on my stereo again tonight... 

Lady Antebellum - If You See Him If You See Her - ACM Last Rodeo

Missing you....

I know you've been busy, I had things to do too. We haven't talked for some time, I wonder if everything's fine. I had other stuff on me mind, I'm sure you did too, but I just had to tell you this my friend... hey I miss you.

First day of Tuesday Thursday Classes

Well Holly Sh*t ..........


   Classes are interesting to say the least.... i gooofed up today and didnt realize tuesday thursday was also my Chemistry lecture class to i thought it was only thursday... NOPE ooops... I emailed my prof and i will get the papers thursday....


Anywho   Biology Lecture with Kermit the Frog,  Math with some indian dude that just got out of college himself, and then Chem Lab with Quazzy Moto..... YAY me

If you see that one thats is always one my mind...

If you see him, tell him I wish him well. how am I doing? well sometimes
Its hard to tell. I still miss him more than ever. but please don't say a word.
If you see him. if you see him. ~Reba 




 I dont answer questions about him, with out leaving the room. Dont talk to me about him, unless i say something. 

Was asked about him earlier today and i walked away... 

NCSU Update

Here is a email i wrote to NCSU earlier today and the response i got...  

Hi, I applied last fall for NCSU and i was sent a letter about 6 other classes i need to take before getting being accepted.   I was just wondering if i needed to repay the application fee again, for applying for this fall again?    And would there be a difference if i was going in a transfer student verses a freshman? 

Thanks,

Crystal Titus 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Here is the reply I got... 

Hello, Crystal:

Thank you for your email and interest in NC State University.  I'm sorry but at this point, your only option is to transfer into NC State.  Your high school GPA is not competitive for admissions and you do not have an ACT or SAT score on file.  Once a student has enrolled in a second semester of college we require that they meet our transfer requirements.  Most programs require a 3.0 cumulative college GPA for admission.  The last time you applied, your cumulative college GPA was just over a 2.0 which is why our transfer counselor Taylor Holland recommended that you take at least six courses and then re-apply. You will need 1-2 full-time semesters of straight-A work to improve your GPA to where we'd like it to be for admission.  You definitely need a Biology and a college-level Algebra or higher math to be admissible to the program you want here at State so be sure to take those during the Spring, 2012 semester if you're applying for the Fall, 2012 semester.  The application deadline is April 1 and then we'll need to wait for your Spring grades before we can make a decision.  I'm sorry but yes, you do have to re-submit your application & re-pay the application fee for fall.  We still have your transcripts on file, you'll just have to submit your fall 2011 grades by or before April 1 and then a final Spring, 2012 transcript later.  

Hope that helps.  Let me know if you have other questions.  

Best,

Dana Troutman

Assistant Director

Office of Undergraduate Admissions

First Day of Classes

Well went to Spanish today,  on a good note a good friend of mine signed up to take it with me and i didnt know he did... Now at least i have someone i know... Thanks Nolan ...

Anywho got some stuff done in the Horticulture area today too... saw some good friends of mine...

Had a question about him from another friend i answered it vaguely and walked out the door...

Lets Try this again

So here it is Sunday Jan 8th, 2012...

I started off this morning with a 3 mile walk. Now im relaxing... Classes start tomorrow, Only Spanish on Monday, and then Tuesday is Math Biology and Chemistry, Wednesday is Spanish and Bio, and then Thursday is same as Tuesday i think or maybe....

Anyway so ive had some friends trying to set me up with guys right now... I have come to the conclusion that i dont need anyone right now. Classes are going to take up my time again.... Im kinda gettin set in my own ways. Yes my mind is constantly on one person, but Im not even gettin into that right now. Its a Sad Sad situation ...

That whole things ago's along with "Wishing on Someone Else's Southern Star"

I came up with that on my walk because Bryan Whites "Someone Elses Star" and the Eagles " Southern Star" came on ... i put them together :)

So anyway Until Later :)